A Personal Ultimatum

What do I do?

How do I SUCK so much?

Inexperience cannot be an excuse anymore.

But I know that I'm not capable of fixing everything.

And yet with all this knowledge about the fact that I cannot fix everything

And how I have the ability to screw so many things up

I still have the need to try to fix things.

But I still find a way to screw them up.

I need to be more aware of my surroundings.

I need to be more sensitive to the ones I love.

I need to be more adept at love.

I need to be better.

I need to be smarter.

I need to be wiser.

Because you deserve it.

I am going to change.

I am going to change the way I think.

I am going to change the way I love.

I am going to change the way I live.

Because I deserve it.

I am going to do it.

I am going to do it this year.

I am going to do it tonight.

I am going to do it.

Because we deserve it.

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Dear Beautiful,

You deserve the best, and I will give you the best there is and the best there ever will be. End of story. I want to thank you for sticking it out, and pushing me to be the best for you. You are amazing. I love you.

Love always,

Boyfriend [: